Insanely infuriating at times when it seems I’ve completely lost my mind
Funny part is, it’s never my sanity I’m seeking, nope not what I’m trying to find
Just some insignificant object for some random project I’m doin’ just to kill time, fill the void
When that anxiety comes round I’m one you might actually want to avoid
It’s got nothin’ to do with you but I gotta let it out, or should I say take it out?
Either way I’m sure you’ll know what I’m talkin’ ’bout
So please just ignore it, or move along as I start to scream n shout, don’t take it personally
Whatever you do I only ask that you don’t point out the obvious or throw in your own sarcastic bitterness
That’s usually when my lil outbursts become a huge mess
I can’t…well won’t admit I’m wrong, not in the heat of the moment at least, that’s for damn sure
Silence I swear is the cure, hearing my own stupidity flung back at me
That unanswered accusation that usually makes no sense at all
Feelin’ a lil foolish and probably extremely embarrassed, I calm right down, and apologize real fast
See the truth is I am the best way to defeat me
Sayin that out loud even to me sounds so silly
Just know though truth is all I speak
I realized long ago it’s so not worth the work to keep up the lies
What’s the use in trying to hide?
Doesn’t it feel better to let everyone see what’s inside?
Wouldn’t life be that much easier if we all said exactly how we felt?
Better still exactly what we meant?
Things could be so incredibly different
Though it would help if more of us actually listened too
Maybe even did a lil more with our follow through
Hell, if that were the case I wouldn’t have to explain any of this to all of you
© 2013 Shavon Taylor