I hate how much I think about u, I hate how much I care.
I hate that I have 2 go on without u, I hate that you’re never there.
I hate how often I dream of you, I hate how you go on pretending the way you do.
I hate all the times I chose to lean on you, I hate that you’re not here to help see me thru.
I hate how much you cross my mind, I hate how lil I must cross yours.
I hate thinking your love for me just isn’t there for me to find, I hate how every time I speak 2 u its like putting salt on fresh sores.
I hate how hard I tried, I hate how u never would.
I hate how hard I’ve cried, I hate how you never could.
I hate how if given the chance I don’t think I’d change a thing, I hate that all the memories I held so tight now mean nothing.
I hate how I can never take off that stupid ring, I hate my thoughts of u and all the sadness and frustration they bring.
I hate that I can’t let go, I hate that u won’t hold on.
I hate all the emotions you just never showed, I hate that now more than ever i feel like you’re actually gone.
There are so many things I want hate you for but there are too many reasons for me to ever actually hate you, no matter how badly I want to or how hard I try I will somehow still always want u.
I hate how long I’d wait for you, I hate that I can’t change the way u feel.
I hate all the fantasies I’ve create, I hate how all of this feels so unreal.
I hate myself for letting it get so bad, I hate how it all went so wrong.
I hate that u will forever remain so alone n so sad, I hate that with you just ain’t where I belong.
©2013 Shavon Taylor